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Having HIV?

Love Box

I used to buy a lot of con­doms.

No, I do not use them. Well, maybe once or twice, but very sel­dom.

Con­doms to me are nev­er a mix. I dis­like the smell, I dis­like the ‘action’ of hav­ing to take off the con­dom after a good fuck. Most peo­ple would want to just rest after a good 3 hours of bed­ding ses­sion, I would appre­ci­ate that too.

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Are you positive, or negative?

Positive or Negative
The media calls it the influx of moral deca­dence, some peo­ple calls it God’s act to clean up the world.

HIV and AIDS has been in the world for almost 2 decades, com­ing to three. Yet, many peo­ple are still unaware, or just plain igno­rant.

A boy once told me, HIV virus was formed when there by two indi­vid­u­al’s sperm mixed togeth­er. That is how HIV exist, and not the muta­tion of oth­er harm­less virus.

HIV, it is a very impor­tant key­word in the GLTB world, and yet it is also a taboo sub­ject. When I watch Queer as Folk to pass on time, HIV has been men­tion so many times, that it freaks me out.

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Defeating the negative devils

Things did not went as I would have want­ed it to be. Almost imme­di­ate­ly after I post­ed the entry, L mes­saged in my MSN urg­ing me to go for the test. It was left as an offline mes­sage because I was­n’t online at that moment.

He came online that day. I was online the same time as he was. I was still con­tem­plat­ing if I should tell him or not. I choose to let him know, at least I would want to be respon­si­ble for that action. The act that I should have been for a test­ing before engag­ing in a rela­tion­ship with some­one as young and adorable and LOVING as my boy friend.

I told him, he said he knew what was it about. I had no idea about the offline mes­sage that he had sent me because my MSN was not capa­ble of receiv­ing such. L was being very very sup­port­ive. From his words, he seems to be calm, which is a good thing. I guess the biggest obsta­cle to face now is me, and only myself.

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Sleeplessness, worried and anxious

I can’t sleep, and I wish I can.

It all start­ed ear­li­er today when I mes­sage a cou­ple of peo­ple in my address book. Just say­ing hi kind of thing so that peo­ple do not for­get my exis­tence.

One of them came back, it start­ed off with a casu­al chat. How has he been doing, how was every­thing and stuffs.

Then it strikes me.

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Using a condom

The thought of try­ing out dif­fer­ent con­doms just occurred to me. Yes, for a per­son that do not believe in the use of latex, I sud­den­ly thought of that.

Well, seri­ous­ly, how many of you out there have been think­ing of this kind of ‘exper­i­ment’ before. Hav­ing a latex wrap­ping your dick and then you make love with your lover just does­n’t give you the kind of feel­ing that you will get if you pre­fer the oth­er­wise. In a nut­shell, you have peo­ple review­ing dif­fer­ent tech­nolo­gies of a car, dif­fer­ent com­put­er chip, dif­fer­ent this and dif­fer­ent that and yet one for some­thing that has been in the his­to­ry of man kind for so many years, it was neglect­ed.

In the fast paced mod­ern world, many peo­ple just come and go. You do not know their health sta­tus, and often you just fail to ques­tion them. It comes to the only assur­ance that a gay guy can have, is a latex in between. Seri­ous­ly speak­ing, how effec­tive are these grody smelling thing against the dis­ease that one do not speak of? Accord­ing to the research done world wide, con­doms are deemed high­ly effec­tive, but even at CDC’s web­site on the effec­tive­ness of con­doms pre­vent­ing HIV, I could not find any num­bers that indi­cates the suc­cess of pre­ven­tion method. In fact, as quot­ed by the CDC, the only 100% assur­ance that one can get is not to have sex­u­al inter­course. Of course, there are also arti­cles out there that states HIV some­times trans­mit via oral sex.

What is life with­out sex?

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