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The problems

Sleep­less­ness, that is what I can use to describe myself.

I would want to blame it on the dif­fer­ent time zones, they call it jet lagged. Yes, I have been liv­ing on a jet set­ter’s lifestyle since late Novem­ber. It was fun, to be able to trav­el all around, meet­ing dif­fer­ent peo­ple before I start myself in Uni in May.

But that is not the point, the point is, I want­ed to stay away from my home in Kuala Lumpur. I had want­ed to do this for a very long time, try­ing to see if I could for­get the boy. The truth is, I can’t. On the boy’s birth­day last year, while I was in Brazil, I gave the boy a call to wish him a hap­py birth­day. I mean, it would only be appro­pri­ate if I do that, at least, I thought it that way.

Not only was I wrong about the whole thing, I still end­ed up cry­ing at night, hug­ging a pil­low, that I was well aware that it would not hug me back.

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To those that think I give a fuck

I do not under­stand why do you peo­ple think I give a fuck what you peo­ple think if L.

L is a sweet boy, call me igno­rant but I do not think that he is a mon­ey boy. Things between us did not work well, and I am try­ing to make things work, L too believes that things might work well between us, that is why there is this gap that both of us left our­self before the actu­al “breakup”.

Yes, we offi­cial­ly end­ed back in April, ear­li­er but I choose to ignore the details. To me, it nev­er end­ed back then because after that, we got back togeth­er, had loads of fun spend­ing time togeth­er, mak­ing love (mind you, not sex!) and just being in the pres­ence of each oth­er.

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Why can’t we just get along?

I don’t know why is this always hap­pen­ing. The main ques­tion is, why can’t we just get along with each oth­er?

On the faith­ful Sat­ur­day, we were sup­posed to catch a musi­cal play. I mean, we haven done that before, and I thought it would be some­thing new for us, some­thing nice and some­thing dif­fer­ent. Look­ing at the clock, bare­ly 3 more hours before I pick him up, wait­ing anx­ious­ly and watch­ing the clock tick.

Then, my ex boy friend called me and need me to help him some­thing. His com­put­er had got prob­lems, and I thought of giv­ing him that help­ing hand. I told my boy friend about it, just as a habit of let­ting him know my where­abouts.

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After the breakup

A lot of peo­ple had been ask­ing me how did my last adven­ture in the zoo go. I could only say that some details has been removed to pro­tect my dear, and of course to pro­tect me. All in all, we took about 4GB worth of pic­tures. That’s about 1000+ of pic­tures in 7 Megapix­els worth.

On a rather seri­ous ques­tions, do you still keep in touch with your boy friends after a bad breakup? Do you apol­o­gize before the breakup? Do you say thank you?

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I am turning bulimic

For the past 10 days or so, I have not had a prop­er meal. It was­n’t because food was not avail­able to me, but rather the food just does­n’t look appe­tiz­ing enough for me to eat.

L knows I love eat­ing, and I have been gain­ing weight slow­ly. L did com­plained to me that I am get­ting fat­ter and he did jok­ing­ly said he would leave me one day

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