Sponteneus outing

I must say, what had hap­pened was quite a sur­prise to me.

Well, remem­ber that L had start­ed to talk to me about a week ago about [his education](http://www.cedricang.com/a/randomly-thinking/college-and-higher-education-20080423/)? Every­thing went on the good way after that con­ver­sa­tion. I was pret­ty glad actu­al­ly.

There were a few instances that we did argue about stuffs. L was afraid that I might pull out, because I had threat­en to do so, and that is because I was­n’t sure about the whole thing, I had not got that assur­ance from L that I will have a space in his heart.

Actu­al­ly, I was scared that I will be ‘used’ in a way that I don’t want it to be. I was real­ly afraid and I did not know what should I do. A promise is still a promise but I can say that I was­n’t hop­ing that some­thing will be exchanged out of it, but rather, hop­ing for some­thing to hap­pen.

On the day, we chat­ted a few. Things got a lit­tle hot, and L decid­ed that he would not mind if we get a lit­tle inti­mate togeth­er.

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Things went on, I went to his place to pick him up. It was a bit awk­ward for me because in this case, I am mak­ing him not loy­al to his boy friend. As far as I am con­cern, he is still with the boy friend, and I am still the num­ber 3.

Things are a lit­tle dif­fer­ent this time. L want­ed me to do some­thing dif­fer­ent, and it was dif­fer­ent. More than what we nor­mal­ly do. I dul­ly com­ply. Who should I be say­ing no?

No doubt we had fun.