I feel damn fucking stupid now. Yes, I am damn fucking stupid. I thought I can pull some strings and thought everything would go well.
No, instead, I have to endure 1 hour of the his torment, not only that, it leads me to more pain now because of that.
Then, it hurts me more to find out that the courses L wanted to go, is not actually there. How the fuck did I get so foolish to allow that to happen? I should be wiser than that. How the fuck did I even started to consider that this is one of the ways to get things done?
I seriously don’t know what the fuck is going inside my mind when I make that kinda proposal. Seriously.
I feel like crying. No, I don’t just want to cry. I feel so fucking humiliated because of what that guy did to me. I mean, how can I be so fucking stupid to accept this kinda deal when I have not even manage to check the details with L?
Geeze, maybe I should have just jump down the building.