For a long time, I was killing myself to hide that fact. I had all these reasons, it was unfair that only gay people had to come out, I was sick of change, but the truth is, I was just scared.
First, I thought it was just a gay thing but then I realised that no matter what, announcing who you are to the world is pretty terrifying cause what if the world doesn’t like you. So, I did whatever I could to keep my secret.
I hurt the best, most important people and I want them to know that I’m sorry. I am done being scared. I’m done living in a world where I don’t get to be who I am. I deserve a great love story. Disclaimer, this is about to get romantic as F.
So, anyone adverse to gratuitous feelings kindly click over to the BuzzFeed quiz or resume the porn you paused to read this. This guy that I love once wrote that he felt like he was stuck on a Ferris wheel. On top of the world one minute, rock bottom the next.
That’s how I feel now. I couldn’t ask for more amazing friends, more understanding family, but it would be all so much better if I had someone to share it with. So Blue, I might not know your name or what you look like, but I know who you are.
I know you’re funny and thoughtful. You choose your words carefully and that they’re always perfect and I know that you’ve been pretending for so long it’s hard to believe that you can stop. I get it. Like I told you at the very beginning, I’m just like you. So Blue, after the play, Friday at 10, you know where I’ll be. No pressure for you to show up but I hope you do. Because you deserve a great love story too.
It was such a wonderful movie, Love, Simon. The movie is about a teenager coming out. Maybe I should sometimes talk about my coming out story. Maybe not.