Since early September 2008, after I had landed in Bangkok, Thailand, I have been wandering around. The reason was that it was exactly a year before that that I have met with The Boy.

I was packed with minimal luggage, I do buy souvenirs but I send them back home from each destination I visit.

As you can see, I have the mere nessacity of items that I would need, and some might notice there’s a few condoms lying around as well. While those that lay on my bed seems to be tad heavy, wait till you see what is in the bag.

This is just my hand carry, and all my important items.

From Alaska, to Zulu I have been traveling. Often spending the night alone. It does get pretty lonely, and I had plenty of time to rethink about everything. 8 months I have not stepped back to my own home, 8 months that I had been stepping my foot to different part of the world.

I had also met a lot of people. The adventures were great.

check out the few pictures that I have got.

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I would want to blame it on the different time zones, they call it jet lagged. Yes, I have been living on a jet setter’s lifestyle since late November. It was fun, to be able to travel all around, meeting different people before I start myself in Uni in May.

But that is not the point, the point is, I wanted to stay away from my home in Kuala Lumpur. I had wanted to do this for a very long time, trying to see if I could forget the boy. The truth is, I can’t. On the boy’s birthday last year, while I was in Brazil, I gave the boy a call to wish him a happy birthday. I mean, it would only be appropriate if I do that, at least, I thought it that way.

Not only was I wrong about the whole thing, I still ended up crying at night, hugging a pillow, that I was well aware that it would not hug me back.

It was Chinese New Year. I remembered last year’s pretty well. I was in hometown, and could not let myself not missing the boy. We practically texted each other the whole day. I had to run around the house because the house was surrounded by hills, and Maxis coverage wasn’t that great, then I found the perfect spot, the store room.

Sweating and sneezing, I embraced myself, just for the sake of not wanting to miss his text messages. Silly, I know. That’s what we all do for love, no?

Deep inside, back to reality, I thought I could forget him if I leave my room, leave everything behind and move somewhere else. I could not move to Singapore because that was our initial plan. We both continue our studies in Singapore.

Singapore will bring back the memories, I would definitely sure about it. Then, during my vacation, I cried, and cried again, hugging the cold hotel pillows, streak of tears just fall down to my cheek, and to the bed.

I could not help it, they say I was being foolish for falling in love to a person that do not love me. Deep inside, I still believe that there is love, deep inside, I still believe that it was me that had caused the breakup, and it was be that had put our relationship into that fine thin line.

I could have salvage it, I just know I could.

It has been almost 9 months since we break up, and I am still here, hugging my pillow tight, hoping that it was the boy that I was hugging.

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Yes, no more that bullshit from Blogger, at least this way I can write freely without the fear of my blog gets deleted.

Of course, special thank to my sweetheart Eugene for making this possible, thank you to my lovely god brother to help me to import my entries and all the other stuffs that I don’t know how to do.

And thank you the readers that has been keeping the blog by sending me regards via email and Facebook asking me what happened to it.

I think that black theme is a bit harsh on the eyes. I had always preferred the white or lighter colored backgrounds. I seem to be able to find out where and how to edit, so I am thinking of editing them to see if I can get the theme to how I want it to be.

I have a lot of stories to tell, stories of when I was in Brazil, in United Kingdom. Encounters that I had in New York, and in Alaska and all the lovely pictures that I have taken. For those that were not well informed, I was on a ‘world tour’ since Christmas 2008, and been out of the country since then.

Okay, no naughty story today, since I really really need to get to bed, and head to New Zealand =)

P/S: Happy birthday!

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