Happy Birthday

There again I was con­tem­plat­ing if I should call The Boy or at least sent him a short mes­sage.

I could not get myself to do it. The last time I tried, I got a “Any­thing? I am busy” reply from him and that feel­ing total­ly sucks.

I was at Han­nah Tan’s con­cert at The Garden’s ball­room. Alone.

I brought a gift, a gift that I thought would make some boy hap­py. I reg­is­tered myself, and pass the staff my gift and pro­ceed to the ball­room where Han­nah Tan was going to sing.

It was THE song, the song that made me almost shed my tears; the song from the local group, Innu­en­do.

Dri­ving home, with my thoughts stuck in my head, more tears start­ing to flow uncon­trol­lably.


I last saw The Boy some­time in August in a club some­where in Kuala Lumpur. I think the per­son that I saw that was with him is his boy friend, but I wasn’t too sure.

Till today, I don’t know why, but I still think of him all the time. Per­haps I still miss him, but some­thing I real­ly do not want to.

I tried to keep myself from mes­sag­ing him, I tried to not think of him, but every time I do, I failed mis­er­ably.

Per­haps I will nev­er for­get him. Per­haps every year, I will go back to this state of uncer­tain­ty, per­haps …

They say, true love are hard to find, dif­fi­cult to leave, and impos­si­ble to for­get.

Hap­py birth­day, my boy.

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4 Responses to Happy Birthday

  1. happygolucky1 December 22, 2009 at 11:34 am #

    i dun­no u well enough, but i think u havent get over him yet. if ur moti­va­tion of call­ing him is just to bcome fren again, i think u should real­ly give him calls, even after some cold replies. but if u just want to rec­on­cile, then im not sure its ben­e­fi­cial to u, as i think u r cur­rent­ly suf­fer­ing more than him 😛 any­way take care and have a very Mer­ry Xmas ahead 🙂

  2. fufu December 24, 2009 at 6:34 pm #

    true love are hard to find, dif­fi­cult to leave, and impos­si­ble to for­get ” total­ly agree… any­way enjoy the hol­i­day… mer­ry christ­mas =p

  3. Twilight December 25, 2009 at 12:14 am #

    Cheer up man! Life is a tough jour­ney for every sin­gle one. Hap­pi­ness is always around in many forms. Iden­ti­fy it and go for it. The end of the dark­est tun­nel is always the light wait­ing.

    Have a very Mer­ry Christ­mas!

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