Happy Birthday

There again I was contemplating if I should call The Boy or at least sent him a short message.

I could not get myself to do it. The last time I tried, I got a “Anything? I am busy” reply from him and that feeling totally sucks.

I was at Hannah Tan’s concert at The Garden’s ballroom. Alone.

I brought a gift, a gift that I thought would make some boy happy. I registered myself, and pass the staff my gift and proceed to the ballroom where Hannah Tan was going to sing.

It was THE song, the song that made me almost shed my tears; the song from the local group, Innuendo.

Driving home, with my thoughts stuck in my head, more tears starting to flow uncontrollably.

I last saw The Boy sometime in August in a club somewhere in Kuala Lumpur. I think the person that I saw that was with him is his boy friend, but I wasn’t too sure.

Till today, I don’t know why, but I still think of him all the time. Perhaps I still miss him, but something I really do not want to.

I tried to keep myself from messaging him, I tried to not think of him, but every time I do, I failed miserably.

Perhaps I will never forget him. Perhaps every year, I will go back to this state of uncertainty, perhaps …

They say, true love are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.

Happy birthday, my boy.

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4 Responses to Happy Birthday

  1. happygolucky1 December 22, 2009 at 11:34 am #

    i dunno u well enough, but i think u havent get over him yet. if ur motivation of calling him is just to bcome fren again, i think u should really give him calls, even after some cold replies. but if u just want to reconcile, then im not sure its beneficial to u, as i think u r currently suffering more than him 😛 anyway take care and have a very Merry Xmas ahead 🙂

  2. fufu December 24, 2009 at 6:34 pm #

    “true love are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget ” totally agree… anyway enjoy the holiday… merry christmas =p

  3. Twilight December 25, 2009 at 12:14 am #

    Cheer up man! Life is a tough journey for every single one. Happiness is always around in many forms. Identify it and go for it. The end of the darkest tunnel is always the light waiting.

    Have a very Merry Christmas!


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