Worried

Okay, I am not offi­cial­ly wor­ried yet, but I am very very wor­ried right now and my mind is think­ing those that are not nec­es­sary.

I met up with Lester just now; we had a small argu­ment, and I pre­fer to talk with him face to face instead of just exchang­ing words on MSN, things can get real­ly ugly when you chat on MSN, some­times.

So, I went over to pick up L, he got to go back for din­ner by 8, and I picked him up by 7. Reached home about 15 min­utes lat­er, and we start­ed talk­ing about issues that we are fac­ing.

We exchanged kiss­es and hugs, and then when I want­ed to send him home, it was too late; 5 min­utes before 8. He then sug­gest­ed we eat out, some­thing light and easy.

After our quick­ie din­ner, when I was send­ing L home, K2 called me and ask for a meet up. Well K2 had been want­i­ng to meet up with me, say­ing that he had some­thing to talk to me. I wasn’t sure what was it as he refused to tell me on the phone, but he did hint­ed that it was some­thing to do with Lester.


On the oth­er day, after I went out with Lester to go around KL, and lost my phone, K2 had tried to called me and could not get me. He was wor­ried and con­cern and left a mes­sage on my MSN. I tried to call him back but he is always in a meet­ing.

K2 is a good friend, I must agree. When I went to the pub last time, K2 knew about my prob­lems with Lester, and he had always been there to lis­ten to be and hear me out. He is a guy that every per­son would want, unbi­ased and always there to lis­ten. L had warned me about me approach­ing his friends, in this case, I think the rela­tion­ship between K2 and me, are still at the bor­der line, with­out me cross­ing over to the oth­er side.


So I picked up K2 after drop­ping L back home. L knows that I am going out with K2, as I told him that I was going to, try­ing to be as trans­par­ent as I can so that Lester do not mis­un­der­stand our rela­tion­ship.

When I met K2, we start­ed chat­ting. I had to lie to K2 that I have not seen L for a very long time, although we did exchange a cou­ple of SMS, and that’s about it. It was some­thing that Lester would have want­ed, not let­ting any­one know about our rela­tion­ship, I thought it was fair too, since L and K2 are friends, and K2 works very close­ly with K, the per­son who was dat­ing L the oth­er time.


I had not know that L had broke up with K. Lester would not have told me if we had not had that fight the oth­er time. It seems like I seem to find out things about L when­ev­er we argue about some­thing else, and this is defi­nate­ly not healthy at all.

Fur­ther, I had come to an under­stand­ing that ‘win­ning’ is not always the solu­tion. Some­times I just agree to what L said, and put the issue to the back of my mind.

L told me that K had dumped him, for anoth­er per­son, anoth­er per­son that L him­self know. Iron­i­cal­ly, this per­son that K went after, is also a per­son that I know for a cou­ple of hours; I had fetched him from Wangsa Maju, to the pub to meet with K2. I lat­er found out from K2, after our out­ing togeth­er just a few hours ago. No won­der K2 is angry at K. K had betrayed L’s trust, and had betrayed K2’s friend­ship. The guy that K going after, also has got a boy friend. Man, this is get­ting real­ly com­pli­cat­ed that I myself could not com­pre­hend.

I guess, this is what they call as the ‘gay cir­cle’.

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