Speak of mind

I’m already tired, I don’t need him to make me happy anymore; to wait for his hugs, my importants to him; everything is already too late.

I am just tired of life. There is nothing here for me; I tried to make it so many times and just end up failing and making everyone around me disappointed. I am done and I am done hurting those around me and I just want to be alone, for eternity, just to be alone. Nothing in this world make me happy anymore. I can’t stand being around people no matter how hard I try.

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4 Responses to Speak of mind

  1. clement July 16, 2008 at 4:35 pm #

    I enjoy reading your blog. Its very personal and deep in meanings. Keep up the good work.

    I am straight and i tell you something. Life is very tiring and sometimes full of disappointment. You gotta learn how to take it. No matter how you please people, they will not learn how to appreciate you. They think you are plain dumbass hole to be used or played around.

    Treasure yourself and its no harm to be a little selfish as god teach us to take care of ourselves. Ok? I am learning to be one as I had 3 of my best friends BETRAYED me.

    Ok? take care and have a nice day!

  2. Cedric Ang July 17, 2008 at 1:53 am #

    clement: it really depends how would you see it. Like you mentioned, learn how to take it up. I do believe that appreciation is earned, not expected. Betrayal is everywhere, it’s just depending on how costly they are =)

  3. clement July 17, 2008 at 3:37 pm #

    yeah you are right.

    there are expectations i guess in my life. Felt so stupid and lame after being batrayed. It shows my stupidity and ny naiveness of trusting friends.

    i think i put the friendship word in my life into a very important note.I am trying to get along with people and it really sucks….

    I keep telling and asking myself why people is treating me like that. Maybe i am the weak type. I cried when they betrayed me. And i ask myself why i am crying like a donkey where people is living hapilly out there without thinking they have done wrong?

    I also cant find the suitable reason to convince myself in this situation…….

    Btw… are you working in singapore now?

  4. Cedric Ang July 22, 2008 at 3:07 pm #

    clement, no, am not working in Singapore.

    Well you are not alone. I cry too when someone betrays me, then after that I think of the bad things that they done to me, and I write it down in case I forget. After that, I totally forgets about them.

    6 billion people on earth, why should they be one that is hurting you?