Speak of mind

I’m already tired, I don’t need him to make me hap­py any­more; to wait for his hugs, my impor­tants to him; every­thing is already too late.

I am just tired of life. There is noth­ing here for me; I tried to make it so many times and just end up fail­ing and mak­ing every­one around me dis­ap­point­ed. I am done and I am done hurt­ing those around me and I just want to be alone, for eter­ni­ty, just to be alone. Noth­ing in this world make me hap­py any­more. I can’t stand being around peo­ple no mat­ter how hard I try.

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4 Responses to Speak of mind

  1. clement July 16, 2008 at 4:35 pm #

    I enjoy read­ing your blog. Its very per­son­al and deep in mean­ings. Keep up the good work.

    I am straight and i tell you some­thing. Life is very tir­ing and some­times full of dis­ap­point­ment. You got­ta learn how to take it. No mat­ter how you please peo­ple, they will not learn how to appre­ci­ate you. They think you are plain dum­b­ass hole to be used or played around.

    Trea­sure your­self and its no harm to be a lit­tle self­ish as god teach us to take care of our­selves. Ok? I am learn­ing to be one as I had 3 of my best friends BETRAYED me.

    Ok? take care and have a nice day!

  2. Cedric Ang July 17, 2008 at 1:53 am #

    clement: it real­ly depends how would you see it. Like you men­tioned, learn how to take it up. I do believe that appre­ci­a­tion is earned, not expect­ed. Betray­al is every­where, it’s just depend­ing on how cost­ly they are =)

  3. clement July 17, 2008 at 3:37 pm #

    yeah you are right.

    there are expec­ta­tions i guess in my life. Felt so stu­pid and lame after being batrayed. It shows my stu­pid­i­ty and ny naive­ness of trust­ing friends.

    i think i put the friend­ship word in my life into a very impor­tant note.I am try­ing to get along with peo­ple and it real­ly sucks.…

    I keep telling and ask­ing myself why peo­ple is treat­ing me like that. Maybe i am the weak type. I cried when they betrayed me. And i ask myself why i am cry­ing like a don­key where peo­ple is liv­ing hapil­ly out there with­out think­ing they have done wrong?

    I also cant find the suit­able rea­son to con­vince myself in this sit­u­a­tion.……

    Btw… are you work­ing in sin­ga­pore now?

  4. Cedric Ang July 22, 2008 at 3:07 pm #

    clement, no, am not work­ing in Sin­ga­pore.

    Well you are not alone. I cry too when some­one betrays me, then after that I think of the bad things that they done to me, and I write it down in case I for­get. After that, I total­ly for­gets about them.

    6 bil­lion peo­ple on earth, why should they be one that is hurt­ing you?