Love makes you do stupid things

I feel damn fucking stupid now. Yes, I am damn fucking stupid. I thought I can pull some strings and thought everything would go well.

No, instead, I have to endure 1 hour of the his torment, not only that, it leads me to more pain now because of that.

Then, it hurts me more to find out that the courses L wanted to go, is not actually there. How the fuck did I get so foolish to allow that to happen? I should be wiser than that. How the fuck did I even started to consider that this is one of the ways to get things done?

I seriously don’t know what the fuck is going inside my mind when I make that kinda proposal. Seriously.

I feel like crying. No, I don’t just want to cry. I feel so fucking humiliated because of what that guy did to me. I mean, how can I be so fucking stupid to accept this kinda deal when I have not even manage to check the details with L?

Geeze, maybe I should have just jump down the building.

3 Responses to Love makes you do stupid things

  1. pjpumper April 28, 2008 at 1:09 am #

    i read all your entries and i could only find all fault lies in you and not L.love will never make you do stupid things, only obsession.you are not in love, you like to think you are in love. you had L, you let it go. let your “love” go and if it does find its way back, you will know it’s true.

  2. Cedric Ang April 28, 2008 at 1:13 am #

    PJpumper, being obsess is okay, I think. I may think that I am in love, and yes I did let L go once. I know the problem, and the problem has always been me. Thanks for coming.

  3. Paul April 28, 2008 at 9:02 pm #

    Been reading through the posts. Maybe you should just take it slow for a while 🙂