Letting it go

I know I nor­mal­ly do not post videos, but there is always the first time in doing any­thing.

I can safe­ly say that this song has been my com­pan­ion ever since our break up.

I was intro­duced to the song by The Boy, he was hav­ing his bad day one day while I was with him, and he kept on play­ing the song again and again. He told me that he could lis­ten to the same song all day long, and not get bored of it. Tears and emo­tion filled his eyes when he said that.

I guess, he might be miss­ing some­one.

The thing about The Boy is, he had kept his past love life a secret. I had no idea how many boy friends he had, or was it good or not.


They say that when a rela­tion­ship ends for what­ev­er rea­son, there are there are some left over ‘garbage’ that needs to be cleared off; else those ‘garbage’ will be a major bar­ri­er to hav­ing a suc­cess­ful future rela­tion­ships.

I haven heard from him for at least a cou­ple hun­dred days. Okay fine, almost a whole year and a half. Still, I don’t mind hear­ing his voice. Prob­lem is, will I be emo­tion­al and break down and cry? Or will I be nor­mal; sad bu nor­mal?

After read­ing the arti­cle, Heal­ing From Past Rela­tion­ships I felt it was quite true that per­haps I could not let it go is because there are still the ‘garbage’ inside me that I have not sort­ed out.

Ques­tion is, would I want to let go? Faces all around me, they don’t smile but they just crack. Wait­ing for the ship, but the ship is not com­ing back. Giv­en some­thing to believe, I think I can over­come The Boy. I think I can, I believe I can.

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9 Responses to Letting it go

  1. Bengbeng May 19, 2009 at 5:19 pm #

    let it go.…u got to get rid of the old to have room for the new.

  2. thehappygolucky1 May 19, 2009 at 7:26 pm #

    well i can feel ur sad­ness, and i do under­stand the dif­fi­cul­ty of let­ting it go, but its some­thing u have to (and must) do for your­self so tat u can live bet­ter. the life is pre­cious and short, so cheer up and try to move on in faster pace, wish u all the best 🙂

    • Cedric Ang May 19, 2009 at 9:33 pm #

      @thehappygolucky1,

      Will real­ly try. Thanks!

  3. Twilight May 20, 2009 at 12:03 am #

    I sug­gest that you go sit on the bench out­side the church or tem­ples for a few hours to reflect your whole life with your God. You will be on your feet with uplift­ed spir­its with­in min­utes after cry­ing out to them. You have not lost any­thing but gained every­thing! Expe­ri­ence, hap­pi­ness & sad­ness are all neigh­bours. Today you are sad, so tomor­row is Hap­pi­ness’ turn.

    Tell me if tomor­row you become HAPPY! Hugs!

  4. Justin May 20, 2009 at 8:53 am #

    I dis­agree with Twilght. Don’t involve God when mak­ing these sort of deci­sions. It has to be done inter­nal­ly, with you your­self and nobody else.

    Maybe sit some­where nice and qui­et, but iso­lat­ed. Crowds can ruin the mood. Then start to think back on all the mem­o­ries or “garbage” to be cleared out.

    My point is, you will make your­self “see” it until the mem­o­ries become mere mem­o­ries. Noth­ing more, noth­ing less.

  5. daydream May 20, 2009 at 9:35 pm #

    love is come and go,u don knw when it will be here and maybe tomo­lo it wil lost for­ev­er! but the pre­cious love is come from heart and memories!!just keep those sweet mem­o­rize ‚maybe next time u recall back on it,u still feel warm in ur heart!!

  6. Sad January 8, 2010 at 6:54 pm #

    I am now.…suffering this matter.…and i was same school with him.…n could see him evryday.….….…..but it hurts me.…i still couldn’t let go…

    • Cedric Ang January 9, 2010 at 7:16 am #

      @Sad,

      Sor­ry to hear that. Per­haps it is when I dont see him that makes me miss him so much.

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