The failed friendship

My worries finally catch up with me. After our attempt to lure David into our threesome act, my worries was about Harry; whether can he accept our ‘extra curricular’ activity

It has been three days since I have heard from Harry. The last time I talked with him was when he was on his way back to his hometown (school holidays and all) and he finally had time to get online. He did not mention anything much, and I thought everything is fine.

On Tuesday, Harry finally replied to my numerous messages that I have sent. He said that he was busy with school and such, thats why he had been ‘away’ for the weekend. His text messages were slow, and very unusual.

The then reveal that he was also busy, and wanted to be alone with his boy friend.

I was surprised.

To further my already surprised state of mine, Harry told me that he want to cut contacts with me because he do not feel good about us being friends.

I am not sure what had triggered Harry, but he sent me a text message saying “Point is, let’s just cut contact with each other. All d best. Bye”

I called Harry on his mobile. No answer. I tried again and Harry answered.

I was trying to find out was it because of the sex that we had that he wanted to this. Not forgetting that the boy done this to me before, and I was then not sure what I should be doing.

Harry’s boy friend was beside him, and snatch the phone from Harry.

“I know who are you. You don’t disturb my boyfriend, I know all about you Cedric. CedricAng.com isn’t it? I know”

I wasn’t surprised. To know something that is publicly known, and the person thinks he knows me. For all he knows, he probably knows jackshit, and tries to brainwash Harry into thinking that I am a bad person. I don’t care.

I continue talking with Harry, still reluctant with his decisions, he wanted it to end that way.

I guess, I have to respect him, for one, because I treat him as a friend, and secondly I really do not want him to feel uncomfortable because of what had happen.

It was my mistake. I should not have done that without thinking about the repercussion of the things that might happen because sex is involved.

Yes, the sex session was pleasant, but I think after that, I could sense that Harry regret the decision. Back then, I did not think much about it.

Harry said in a text message “I just don’t feel nice. That’s it. Besides my bf doesn’t want me to befriend any gay friends.”

We had plan to have a eat in lunch at my place and I will be cooking. I know that Harry likes carbonara, and I had bought everything.

I guess, sometimes we could not understand how a human being would thing. Perhaps we should not try to predict the future too much, because everything that you do now, always and will influence the outcome in the future.

Just like me and Harry, just because both of us were horny at that time, we fucked.

The consequences is that I have lost a great buddy, a good friend. If I was given the choice to take back what I have done, I would have done so.

I do not know Harry that well for that long period of time. The truth is, I like Harry a lot, not sexually, but personally as a friend, and a good buddy.

I guess, this teaches us a lesson, to always keep our dick in our pants.

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9 Responses to The failed friendship

  1. m a r v z April 23, 2009 at 8:39 pm #

    Cedric,

    True – when you own a public blog such as this, everything you write will be analysed down to its finer point from the way you structure your words, the choosing of appropriate words and the big emphasis on how you portray your emotions expressed in your blog.

    Perhaps one should practice restraint or abstinence in the face of absolute desire – especially when the circumstances will cause major repercussions later.

    Although I admire your apologies and your complete omission of guilt – still the essence of inducing infidelity lingers in the air which acts like a stain to your name … and I would empathise with Harrys’ situation clearly.

    Keep on blogging dude. – M

    • Cedric Ang April 24, 2009 at 1:43 pm #

      @m a r v z,

      I don’t really give a flying fuck when people judge me base on what I write. Get to know me, then they can judge me.

  2. cyrus April 28, 2009 at 4:13 pm #

    u r really tough…..

  3. ernie May 11, 2009 at 6:17 pm #

    Yes! don’t give a fuck what ppl said based on our thought. Years ago i was overly careful with what i wanted to write in my blog, then it came to me that how my blog follower going to know me if i keep myself in a box. I’m glad i made the leap..

    You can say what you want but it won’t change my mind, i’m still the same..

    Thanks for linking me blog to yours.

    • Cedric Ang May 11, 2009 at 6:21 pm #

      @ernie,

      I have learn that the hard way, I supposed.

  4. ernie May 11, 2009 at 6:46 pm #

    not to worry.. we grew stronger by the moment.

    Enjoy reading your post! Keep it up y’all!

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