Recently in Personal Category

I’m already tired, I don’t need him to make me happy anymore; to wait for his hugs, my importants to him; everything is already too late.

I am just tired of life. There is nothing here for me; I tried to make it so many times and just end up failing and making everyone around me disappointed. I am done and I am done hurting those around me and I just want to be alone, for eternity, just to be alone. Nothing in this world make me happy anymore. I can’t stand being around people no matter how hard I try.

The outing to Marketplace was definitely the first time experience for me. Tuck away from the usual ‘hot spots’ of bars and drunkards. Nicely composed with the Petronas Twin Towers at the background, MarketPlace KL is situated at Lorong Yap Kuan Seng. Tuck within the city, it is a makeshift 2 story bungalow. The subtle lighting from the nearby towers give it a glow, one would then wonder, how much does Petronas pay for their electricity bill.

The night started when we decided to head over to SIN, I was having the assumption that it was a ‘Madonna’ event since I was exclusively invited by the manager themselves. Sadly, silly me made a mistake, it was a Underwear Model theme on Saturday, and ‘Madonna’ was the day before. Underwear theme would be fun, drooling over almost naked models does send the mind into the fantasy land.

Every now and then, I would post a condom review. Well I figure, why post a condom review when sometimes, people just do not know how to use one correctly ?

On that one particular Saturday, was a whole fun filled evening all together.

First, it started with I sorta got invited to go to The Curve where they are having this street art kinda event organized by F&N. I later found out it was F&N Freestylz.

What more, I did not catch what my friend had said, all I cared at that time was to get the The Curve. I brought my compact camara, luckily.

Parking was havoc, I tell you. It is the first time that I actually illegally parked in a mall. Illegal meaning, there were no boxes around my car when I finally parked my car.

Have you been effected by the sudden fuel price surge? Were you caught in that havoc and massive traffic jam at least 1 KM vicinity of a petrol kiosk? Did it took you more than double your traveling time to get back to your home after work that faithful evening? Did you queue up to get the last drop of fuel at the price of RM 1.92 ? Have you been living in your own world dreaming your own dreams?

Could these all be just a dream? To my dismay it wasn’t. Ever since the fuel hike and the havoc that the old man had caused the country, I have been almost living in denial; that the fuel price will come down again, and the old man’s ass would be on fire. I was disappointed.

Disappointment has got to come to an end sometimes; the time when the jalopy needed its fuel. Driving up to the nearby Shell station wasn’t that much of a daunting task, lifting the nozzles that delivers the red colored V-Power fuel that cost RM3.15 a liter is.

It was my first time fueling up after the price hike, I was watching the RM gauge slowly climbing in relation to the liter gauge. A little tad faster than last time, it felt.

The nozzle flipped, it stopped at around 40 liters, filling the jalopy with 40 liters worth of fuel. Slowly adding in another liter of fuel to fill up the jalopy to the brim is like stabbing your heart with a blunt knife. It hurts to watch the Ringgit gauge raise up way too quickly.

The trip to some remote place in Perak proved to be fruitful.

The arrival to Tronoh where University Technology Petronas proved to me that my sense of directions has yet to fail me. I have arrived at the destination earlier than scheduled.

One of the few purpose of the visit was to meet up with a friend that I have been chatting for a few times online, Frankie. Frankie is a undergraduate from UTP, where he showed me the life of staying in the Uni’s campus. The closest to what I can expect if Lester were to be accepted to UiTM.

I seriously do not understand why is the relationship always like this.

As much as I want it to turn to a sweet side of the story, as much as I tried to do what is I assume is the best, it always turn outs to be something else.

Sometimes, some things are best buried, about 6 feet under.

I am feeling really lonely right now. I can’t do much about it.

The main reason, is because I have lost my phone, I never thought it was necessary to restore the contacts in my phone because I had the few important numbers in my phone that I would be calling when I needed someone to talk with; I was wrong.

You see, this friend of mine has got this unusual sleeping schedule. He sleeps when everyone is awake, and awake when everyone sleeps. When I tried to call him just now, he was sleeping.

Now I can really feel how Will Smith is feeling in the movie ‘I Am Legend’. Imagine a world where you have no one to talk to, a world where there is nothing.

Every once a while, people tend to do things out of the ordinary. Trying to push their own limits that they have set to themself, to get out from their comfort zone.

I had wanted to leave that comfort zone for a very long time, but I had not dare to do that because I wasn’t sure how things would be, and how well can I handle them.

As much as I would like to talk about L in the blog, and as much as I do not want to because it is a public domain, I cant. Mainly because L is involved in many events in my life.