Cedric Ang

I tried so hard, I really did.

It was a prank that I have pulled that went seriously wrong.

At first, I thought I wanted to see his reaction on how he would see things. Now, I guess I have to change my point of view to a whole new perspective.

I could not sleep last night. Penning my last entry I was already exhausted, perhaps with what has been going on for the past few months, perhaps with what has been going on lately. I tried to slot in hints on my Facebook, hints that I wasn’t ready for a long distance relationship. I am a ‘closeted’ person. Closeted not that I am not out, but a rather, I prefer to be close to someone, the be able to hug the person, to kiss the person, and in return to be loved.

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I must have been the most happiest guy on earth right now.

Indulging myself with the cake that David had bought me, it sent me into deep thoughts again.

I do wonder somethings, why can’t we as human being be nicer to each other, and everyone is happy. Instead, we choose to have our selfless thoughts, putting our differences in front of us all the time, and often us that as an excuse to take grudge against one another.

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I had thought of blogging this, but many things came on, and I had just lost the mood to do so.

Firstly, it was Harry.

If you had read the previous few entries, you would read that problem had started after Harry and me got together in a position that we should have never imagine any of us to be, even as buddies.

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My worries finally catch up with me. After our attempt to lure David into our threesome act, my worries was about Harry; whether can he accept our ‘extra curricular’ activity

It has been three days since I have heard from Harry. The last time I talked with him was when he was on his way back to his hometown (school holidays and all) and he finally had time to get online. He did not mention anything much, and I thought everything is fine.

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I woke up early today. Really early.

I could not sleep. Insomnia has got the best of me. That’s not just it, flashback of our moments with the boy hit me hard again, till I almost kneel down to my knees begging it to stop.

I want to cry it out, loud if I could, but I can’t. Streak of tears just kept on falling because it knows I miss the boy very much.

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I guess me and David got even closer after that day of meeting him.

David is a shy but daring boy. He loves getting loved, and loves loitering in shopping complex. He called me and asked if I was free to bring him around.

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A careful plan was drafted out with Harry. The plan was to get David to Harry’s house, and then we try to seduce him with kisses, and hugs and see if we could get David aroused.

It worked up pretty okay at first. I went over to Harry’s place to pick his sleepy ass up, then went over to David’s to pick him up. We wanted to head over to my place because it was a little too early to do the shopping that Harry wanted to do. (continue reading…)

“Cedric, you ex boy friend looks like my friend. He is my junior and he looked exactly like him”

That was what he told me when I first showed him the boy’s picture over the Internet. I had slowly gotten over the whole break-up thing, but I wasn’t still sure that I have put the boy aside, and continue with what is going on what is in front of me.

I supposed I cannot forget the fact that I can easily fall in love, even back in my heart, I still think about the boy, all the time.

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I am irked by this certain individual that has a long family history of incest.

On the other hand, I have also noticed a slight increase of readers to my blog, and this is not from the search engine. While I am not sure what is going on, I hope the new readers would enjoy reading, and perhaps more comments. (It is weird that I have only 0.1% of my readers commenting) (continue reading…)

People had been calling me names.

People think that I am fake.

Well, I don’t know how fake can I be, if I can leave a message here, telling you that I am as real as it gets.

Yes, you are getting fat. I still prefer the old you, adorable, charming and good looking.