That Lasting Relationship

How many of us actu­ally wish to have a long last­ing relationship?

From that time when I met Nel­son to the time when Milo finally came to my life, it has been a roller coaster ride. Then came Ash­ton and then Julian. All within that short 6 months period.

Am I a play boy as some would label me? Or am I just search­ing fran­ti­cally for that some­one to love?

When I was with Nel­son, it became so unsta­ble that we find faults with each other. When Nel­son got sick, he blamed me.

It was then I met with Ash­ton, a boy that I have met a cou­ple of years back.

It wasn’t a rela­tion­ship back then, but we both agree to try it out, for old times sake.

It didn’t work, only lasted for a few months and we decided to just be friends.

Then I met Julian, whom I have been hav­ing on and off con­ver­sa­tion since a year ago. He met into some finan­cial issue and I am not will­ing to help because of the past expe­ri­ence that I had. He ignores me very fre­quently and it seems he is only using me for his own benefits.

What should I do now?

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That Whatsapp Message

It was a short and sim­ple mes­sage. “Good morn­ing” I said.

Online.

Last seen, 2 min­utes ago.

No replies.

Happy Valen­tines,” I said.

Online.

Last seen, 1 minute ago.

No replies.

Blank.

He blocked me.

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That Chat

We went for sup­per shortly after. I wanted to go some­where fur­ther but it was get­ting too late and I was feel­ing a lit­tle sleepy. So we decided some­where nearby instead. Again, we had such good con­ver­sa­tion about every­thing up until the din­ing table.

It was when he showed me his phone with my num­ber who he had named it as ‘Dono Who’. I agree, i did not offi­cially tell him what is my name, which I think it was not impor­tant at that time. i took his phone, and entered my name into that entry.

When he took back the phone, he stared at it for a moment.

Your name is very famil­iar, where have I known you before?”

A very bad way to clear my name, I real­ized. He promised to shove it aside but we all know it will not hap­pen. We humans just like to dig out the past and talk about them, one time or another.

Back home, we still con­tinue to talk about it. I showed him some mes­sages that we pre­vi­ously exchanged, and that jogged his mem­ory a little.

We hugged a lot that night, and basi­cally talk till both of us fell asleep. It was the first time I had this kind of expe­ri­ence. I still remem­ber that we had this dis­cus­sion so seri­ously, he totally for­got about the road and drive into a pothole.

The morn­ing, we both hugged a lit­tle before send­ing him off. He has got a meet­ing so i didn’t dis­turb him dur­ing the day. We had planned pre­vi­ously to go for a movie after he has done his stuffs.

Then, things did not go well .. I am still sad.. why? How come? How did it hap­pened the way it did?

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That Feeling

You know that feel­ing when you liked some­one? That tin­gling sen­sa­tion that you often hear in movie dialogs but don’t quite know what it is?

It was this guy that I got to know back in the days. We can’t say we know each other, but he has heard of me, and like­wise I have heard of him.

He mes­saged me one day in response to some­thing that I have posted in a forum. In that mes­sage was his con­tact num­ber. I sent him a text and it was a short exchange of mes­sages, noth­ing moved; this was a year ago.

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Democracy Is Not Dead

Today marks the his­tory for Malaysians as results of the Malaysian Gen­eral Elec­tions are made official.

The first mes­sage I got after my 18 hour flight from Malaysia was Barisan National won the Gen­eral Elec­tion by 133 par­lia­men­tary seats. It also marks it as the dirt­i­est elec­tion in Malaysia’s elec­toral history.

It sad­dens me that we as Malaysians are not fight­ing for the right cause. We want cheaper cars and cheaper petrol, do you know how much more cars are we going to put on the road if that happens?

Why isn’t Malaysian’s pub­lic trans­porta­tion up to par to our neigh­bor­ing coun­tries? Could it be because Mahathir was busy chan­nel­ing funds into his pet projects like Per­waja and Proton?

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